If you were to come over for a cup of coffee…
…I would probably be a bit frazzled this morning. I have so much to do for the birthday party this weekend and I haven’t had a chance to put much thought into it with everything going on with the house. Oh well… right? Sometimes other things get in the way… and we can’t dedicate as much time and energy as we had hoped. Hopefully it will still turn out cute with what I have… at this point I just have to be okay with it and move forward. I’ll just have to plan a bit better next year… when the house is in order and I’m not painting walls until 1AM
… You would notice that for the first time in 6 weeks … I have countertops. Finally. This is huge. However, sadly they will all be redone in a few weeks. The island got chipped in transport. The measurements were wrong on a few… oh and they forgot to order one of them all together. I had to call and complain… and I’m not much of a yeller… unless I feel like I need to be. So I am talking to the lady and she’s like you are being so nice.. I would be yelling at me if I were you. So I was like… Oh no. Please understand that even though I am being nice.. I am honestly completely upset. I’m furious… but yelling at you isn’t going to fix anything. So hopefully they figure out a way to leave us on a better not by the end of this. For now… I am just happy that we have some sort of countertop regardless… however, now installing the backsplash is pushed back… so the kitchen is just never ending.
… I would probably tell you that… I am in just complete awe of Hudson. I blame Time hop… really it just makes me realize how fast my littles are growing. I mean this whole week … I have been seeing notifications of his first photo shoot.. And he’s so tiny… and now.. He’s a walking … babbling… toddler. And I just cannot get over how all the days rolled together over the past year… and here we are. It’s so crazy how much happens in a year. How it rolls together and you do not notice them changing before your eyes… until you see a photo from a year ago and you stop… and just stare.. And honestly think… when the heck did all of this happen?
… I would probably tell you that this past weekend I painted 3 rooms and still feel like I barely got anything done. I am exhausted. I am so ready for the house to be ready to go. It’s going to be a LOOOONG time before this house is done… but I am just ready to have storage… and décor … and everything to be painted… It’s killing me. I still haven’t painted our master bedroom… or the bathrooms. I feel like I will be painting for the rest of my life. Jerry hasn’t been helping paint. He is milking his slight concussion for all it’s worth and claims he can’t stand on a ladder. Don’t feel bad for him…. Wives know when their husbands are lying. And he is LYING.
… I would tell you that sometimes I get my feelings hurt easily. Do you ever get that way? I feel like… I do a lot… I’ll put in this extra effort. I make the phone calls, I show up to everything, I go out of my way… .and its unappreciated… and often just not returned. Now don’t get me wrong… I realize you don’t do things to get something back. I am talking about just… a mutual appreciation. Like it gets taken for granted… and it sucks. I just don’t get how when you care about someone… they can’t make the time for you when it’s inconvenient. I mean I get it. Everyone is busy. Everyone. However, at the end of the day I think people matter… and sometimes it’s just hurtful do feel like you don’t matter as much as they matter to you. Does that make sense? Sometimes I feel like it’s just expected that I will show up… I will take the time to do things… and then I get a “sorry I’m busy” when the tables turn. And its people you care about
… And I have been trying to change my perspective. And honestly just change a few ways I react to certain things. So it’s hard. It’s hard to not take things personally… and feel unappreciated at times. But regardless I need to learn to not get upset and continue doing what I believe is right … and focus on that.
… I would tell you I worry about grudges. And anger. Someone close to me has a family member they haven’t talked to in over half a decade. And it just seems so unnecessary to me. No one is willing to make the first move to try and fix something that was broken. Hanging onto pride on who is right and who is wrong. And I just think… how sad they will never get those years back. And not understanding how they actually remove themselves from each other’s lives. I think it’s sad that there is a lifetime of great memories together with that person… and one day… one conversation ruined it all. Now, honestly this situation has nothing to do with me. So I do not have an opinion… however more of just an observation and realization of how quickly a family can be torn apart… and how hard it is to let go of who was right and who was wrong… and just a little life lesson for myself to try and remember this. To try and remember what this did to not only them but to the whole family. How so many people are affected by it.. And just to realize that my actions do not affect just me. But they affect everyone I am close to. And I think it’s important for me to keep that in perspective. Sometime some of the best lessons come from those around you. And honestly, situations like this aren’t any one person’s fault. IT usually comes from years and years of things building up. but it’s just sad. I think now I look at things with a different point of view. I worry constantly about how my actions will affect my kids. It’s a lot of weight. But it makes us become better versions of ourselves.. And take a step back… breathe… and think before I react. I do believe it takes two in bad situations. Both parties are always at fault. There is not victim. So if I am upset with someone… or in an argument. I need to own up to my own actions first and acknowledge regardless of the situation what I did wrong whether intentional or not.
… I would tell you that we are finally talking about the deck this weekend. Which means we will soon be having a working pool. Things got postponed with this crappy weather and then jobs getting pushed back and schedules. But looks like this weekend… it will BEGIN. I am so stinking excited. The kids need this. I need this.
… I would probably tell you that the dogs have been doing better. They seem to understand for the most part what is our yard now. And slowly Charlie gets a tad bit calmer by the day. She is still quite the puppy with TONS Of energy. But she’s slowly listening more and more… and it’s hard because we know that she is just acting out to get attention… a puppy… 2 kids.. And a new house… its hard people. Do not do it. … space it out. Trust me on this.
… I would tell you that my husband wants to do a garage sale. Most people hate having garage sales. Not my Jerry. He loves them. We only have smaller miscellaneous items but he is still dead set on a garage sale. I really think it’s because he doesn’t have a honey do list those days and he sits in a chair… all day long. I’m onto his tricks.
… And then it would be time to go about our day… kids would be up and ready to go… and Charlie would be running around like a crazy person… while Nala lays on her bed glaring at her for waking her up :)
… Until next week sweet friend. If you follow along on Instagram you have already seen these house updates. It is still a WIP … but thought I would share a bit of it with you now