Reading: While consulting at night for my previous employer and starting a new job… and getting used to the school schedule and Hudson’s schedule… throwing in a puppy. Well… I haven’t had much time for reading. I have a few books on my list right now. This one and This One and This One But the only reading I have done lately is look at Loveable Liveable Home and make notes on future projects I would like to try :)
Eating: My favorite meal during the day is breakfast. I love everything about breakfast food. Lately I have been obsessed with scrambled eggs with goat cheese, mushroom, and spinach…. With a lot of salt and pepper. It’s amazing. I could eat it every single day and never grow tired of it. I am also obsessing over saltines with pumpkin butter. It’s. the. Best.
Thinking about: The five thousand things I want to get done this week. I have laundry to catch up. Rooms to clean. Grocery shopping to do. House projects to finish. And the list goes on and on and on. We have been considering hiring a cleaning service. Someone to just come out and do the things that take up so much time on the weekends. The dusting, the floors, the bathrooms, etc. I don’t have enough time to do everything. I am not sure how to find someone I like though. Any tips? I thought about just buying a few groupons and going from there. They always have deals on it. Anyone tried that? Please help. Also making the decision that our family is “complete”. We always wanted two kids. but then making it … final. Scares me. Did you feel that way? I keep asking Jerry, “are you sure?” and he keeps telling me well we need to figure it out soon. And then I’m all like.. no two is good … two is good. Then I’ll wake him up at 5am… with another… “are you sure” and this is pretty much the story of our lives. I can’t make a final decision.. I bounce around like crazy… and I am pretty sure I drive him nuts. But there are no overwhelming feelings of being “done” Do those even exist? I am like 98% positive we are “complete” but there is a small piece of me that is like… hmm… Fawn are you sure? Why I listen to that crazy 2% so often I will never know.
Looking forward to: All of Hudson’s firsts coming up. His first Halloween, the first time he sits on his own, his first thanksgiving, his first visit with Santa, his first words, first crawl, etc etc. This holiday season will be so different, not only because it’s Hudson’s first holiday season but just our dynamic of family of four. It’s amazing how completely content and blissful you feel with the interaction of your two kids. Just the knowing of the memories that are not only happening now but … memories to come. I love watching this relationship between Maddux and Hudson… and while I watch them… I picture them at ages 10& 5 or even 15&10 … and believe me I am not delusional there will be fights and arguments and they will annoy the crap out of each other … because hey, that’s what siblings are for. But my sister and I fought all the time… but the holiday season is filled with such a different set of memories… me and her laughing and frosting cookies together… staying up late waiting for Santa…. Watching Christmas movies with our parents… I know that this is just the beginning of it… and I am so thankful for our little family… ever so thankful.
Enjoying: the age 5. I am telling you guys, it’s the best age in this world. He is so curious… he wants to learn about anything and everything. He is consumed by dinosaurs. His uncle gave him a Jurassic World hard hate with a light on the top and the kid has not taken it off. He uses it to search for dino bones in our yard :) He constantly is trying to read and spell new words. He is just so…. Curious. His mind is going a mile a minute… and it’s absolutely the best. He is still sweet and cuddly… loves being the big brother… and loves helping out around the house. I feel like every age he has reached I have been like “this is the best age” … but nothing has compared to this. I just love the mix of little boy with this new sense of independence. It’s the perfect combo.
Learning: how to balance so many hats at once. We haven’t found our balance this year yet. I think it has a lot with us having so much on our plates at the moment and I know it will die down. I cannot wait for Jerry to be done with grad school. Sunday night cramming is ruining our weekends :) that was the night we used to just hang out on the couch after the kids were in bed and just wind down together from the craziness the weekend brought in. Now Sunday nights are me doing 124 loads of laundry while he is sitting in the other room taking tests and finishing papers. Maybe this is the balance? Maybe I just need to accept it and realize it wont slow down again for a very long time.
Loving: Fall, the cold weather, all things pumpkin flavored, twinkle lights, Maddux’s love and affection towards his baby brother, Hudson returning that love with complete awe and amazement just watching his big brother, watching Jerry with his two boys, Nala finally accepting the new puppy, plaid everything, fall baseball (Go Cubs), apples with peanut butter, and the holiday season approaching!